Our Pea, Her Pod : June 2015

One of the days you count down until is here! We woke up this morning still feeling pretty good. Thomas and I talked a lot last night about some of the what if's and some of the things that both of us were worried about. My biggest fear is that we would go in and there wouldn't be any embryos left. I can't explain to anyone what it is like, unless of course you've been there. I hate to keep comparing things to our first round and this round has been so different but in the back of my mind I can't help but remember the call that they weren't looking good and we would need to proceed with transfer. This round at day 3, they were still looking really good so now we just needed them to still be strong on day 5- which is today. The didn't take them out yesterday because they do not want to disturb them so it is all about a waiting game. Lacy and Paul opted to drive in this morning since our transfer wasn't scheduled until 11 and we had to check-in at 1030. I put together a big basket of candy for the office to have, a gift for Lacy and for our nurse Jessica. First, Lacy had to have some bloodwork done and Jessica came by to check on us. She was so excited-- she said, "Have they told you??".. I said no what's up!?? She said let me check one thing and I will be right back... She came back with tears in her eyes and said y'all have 7 that look great. Most are grade AA and you have a few BB- which is still great. Immediately I started crying and Lacy was elated with joy! We couldn't believe it! Jessica said, this is it Liz.. it is going to work! The two they are transferring are absolutely perfect! I couldn't wait to get out to the reception area to tell Thomas. He was completely shocked! We both were! This was such great news! I went back with Lacy to get her ready for transfer and once we were in the room the boys came in also. The first round I was the only one able to go back with Lacy which I really hated. I really wanted Thomas there and Paul too for Lacy. This round we were all going to be in the room for the transfer. What an absolutely amazing procedure and how different this office was versus our first office... NIGHT AND DAY! Houston IVF is absolutely amazing-- so high tech. Thomas and I both agreed if this is going to work we were definitely at the right place. Once we got settled in the boys came in and shortly after the embryologist came in to talk to us about the two we were transferring. He said they were the best quality they could be and he was very happy with them. Next he brought them in.. In came an incubator, I immediately lost it. I knew that inside there were two babies, that even though I wouldn't be able to help them finish growing, that Thomas and I made those... together. Just a rush of emotions. Thomas even got teary eyed- hell we all did! What an amazing thing! He asked if we wanted to come look at them, I couldn't believe it. I looked first and then Thomas. There is nothing like it, nothing! It is amazing to think this is how we all start out! A little blob... and ours were just beautiful. I feel like I just love them already. I can't explain it. I've wanted nothing more than for Thomas and I to be able to make a baby and now we possibly have. Just overwhelming. Dr. McKenzie came in and went over everything with us. We prayed over everything and got started. Dr. McKenzie is great-- can't say enough good things about her. She said, "Elizabeth I can't tell you how happy I was when I came in this morning to see what the embryos looked like. After what you all have been through I just want this to work." She explained everything she did while she was doing it. The communication between her and the embryologist was amazing. He never left the room.. We were able to watch the actual placement of the embryos in Lacy's uterus on the ultrasound screen. They use a small catheter to place them in and she took her time. Round 1 it was done so fast. This time she said I want them towards the top of her uterus and I want to make a little well for them to be comfortable in. Just explainable. After the actual transfer the embryologist flushes the catheter to make sure both were flushed in. All was good! Dr. McKenzie sat for a few minutes and visited with us. She said, " I wish I had a crystal ball, and I wish I could tell you this will work but it's out of our hands.. we've done all we can do, but I want you to know that I have never placed embryos of your quality and my patient have to do another round." I know that every case is extremely different and we need Lacy's uterus to accept these babies and help them thrive, but I have so much more hope this time.. Never loosing faith, but hope is surely back in the picture. We will have a blood work pregnancy test next Wednesday and if, well I should say when it is positive the first twelve weeks are crucial for development. Thank you all for your prayers and support-- it is making our dreams come true! Now we just wait.. which by now I should be better at, but anyone that knows me knows that I am NOT good at that!! #babybray #round2

As always here is a few snapshots..