Gosh, never would I have imagined we would be where we are right now.. Here is what has been going on the past two months!! I last left off with our 2nd transfer and 1st cycle with Houston IVF. We were so excited and there wasn't a doubt in our mind that we would be pregnant after the nine day waiting period. We tried to stay busy during that time and we discussed not taking an at home pregnancy test but of course I couldn't wait and had Lacy take one. Our first at home test we took 5 days after the transfer which usually with the quality of the embryos we transferred we would be getting a positive at home.. She took the test and negative. I prayed like crazy that night, Please Lord don't let this be happening again. Thomas was pretty set that if it didn't work this time that we wouldn't try again. Day 6- negative again, Day 7-negative again.. by this time I knew that it "wasn't too early" or "late implantation".. I knew that once again we were getting ready to face the call on day 9 that I remembered all too well.. I tried to prepare myself but deep down I really started to believe that maybe it did work. We asked for prayers and had so many people reaching out to us, it had to work. I went in to the office that day to try to stay busy. We were in the lunch room and the phone rang- it was Jessica(our nurse).. She said;" Liz, How are you?" I said,"To be honest I have been dreading your call", she then said ,"I have been dreading calling you, I'm so sorry honey but it is negative." I asked her to please call Lacy because I just couldn't do it, not again.. I couldn't believe we put her through all of this for another negative. My girls at the office immediately tried to console me but I couldn't face anyone, I didn't want to see or talk to anyone. I left and went home and sat in my room and cried. I was so angry, sad, hurt, embarrassed.. you name it, I felt it. After talking with Thomas and Lacy we decided we would try for a third transfer but keep this one quiet. I honestly hated keeping it quiet because there are so many of you that truly care and I felt I was being deceitful by not saying anything, but we thought maybe something good would come if we changed things up a bit! We went in and met with Dr. McKenzie and she told us she never imagined she would be meeting with us. First thing she ordered was blood work for Lacy just to make sure there wasn't some antibody that was rejecting the embryos- that came back negative which was great news! If it was positive we would have to start her on blood thinners which was not ideal. Dr. McKenzie knew how apprehensive Thomas was about another transfer so she made sure to spend time explaining all the ends and outs of this whole process. In my mind, I knew that we had 7 frozen embryos all of good quality and I felt we can't give up on them. I knew there had to be at least one fighter in there. A friend of mine told us a few months ago- I mean surely there's one good one, and boy has that stuck with me. The fact is when you look at statistics on IVF most cases take multiple transfers as even though they grow to a beautiful 5 day embryo doesn't mean that they are chromosomally healthy. This transfer would be different as Thomas and I did not have to do anything since we had frozen embryos. Lacy had to wait to have her cycle and then she was able to start medications up again. What a trooper she is. Not only shots, but pills and other things I won't say.. but just know she is a rockstar!! We knew that this would probably be our last shot for a while and were ready to place all of our cares and worries in God's hands and know that he has our best interest in mind. Once Lacy started medications, she started going in for bloodwork and ultrasounds to make sure her uterus was ready for the embryos. Our third transfer was scheduled for August 3rd, which again was a little nerve wracking only because we would not know what the embryos looked like after thaw until we arrived for transfer. I started worrying that what if they didn't make it through thaw and we would have to keep thawing until we found a healthy one or two. Well to my surprise when we arrived they gave us the great news that the two that were thawed still looked perfect and showed no signs of degeneration. Again, we were all able to be in the room and in they came in their little incubator. We were able to look at them again, and they looked so perfect. I was a little nervous because I knew that they looked so great the last time also. This transfer I have to be honest I felt more at peace, not quite so nervous or anxious. After the transfer there we were again for the 9 day wait! We opted not to take an at home pregnancy test, although I did ask Lacy a few times, because if she wanted too, you all know I would be all for it! Before you knew it the 9 days were up and it was the day of bloodwork! August 12th was the day and poor Lacy had an awful morning just trying to get the bloodwork done. Lab opened later after she drove all the way there, got a warning speeding ticket and got a eye trying to load cows! I couldn't believe it, all of this and we hadn't even had the blood drawn yet! AHH!! Luckily she was okay and the wait was on! I was at the office again, and sure enough got the call right before I went to lunch.. but not from Jessica, it was THomas this time and he was calling the office which he never does-- He says, "Well do you want the good news or the bad news... The bad news for you is you're stuck with me forever and the good news is, I'm going to be a daddy and you're going to be a mama!!" What? Wait, what? Huh? Did I hear you correctly?? I couldn't believe it... I immediately lost it. It was finally coming true! I was going to be a mom!! I walked back to the break room and everyone was standing up waiting for my response and I couldn't even talk all I could do was give them a thumbs up!! Our numbers needed to be over 50 and we were at 140! We had repeat bloodwork two days later and our number didn't jump quite like we thought it would and went from 140 to 232, Jessica said do not worry but we will check again in 4 days just to make sure we're rising like we want. 4 days later we were at 965! I couldn't believe it, no more bloodwork then we just waited for the 27th for the ultrasound. We opted not to say anything pubically until after the ultrasound. It couldn't get here soon enough. What an experience. All of the "moms" came with us. My mom, Lynnann and Julie. First in the room we just had Lacy, myself and Thomas. Dr. McKenzie came in and was so excited that we had made it this far. They told us they were looking for a heartbeat but if they didn't hear it we would come back the following week to look again because sometimes it's hard to detect. As soon as she started looking around I saw the black gestational sac right away and took a deep breathe followed by a flow of tears. She explained that everything looked perfect. We have one large sac with a baby and a strong heartbeat of 117 bpm. As she looked around she also saw another sac, but it didn't look like it was developing on schedule and said it probably would not progress any further. Upset? I don't know if upset is a good word but I did feel some sadness only because I felt like one of our little peas tried but just wasn't strong enough. She told us we would check again in 2 weeks and if everything looked good, we would be transferred to Lacy's ob. I said, wait.. don't make us leave, we like it here and don't want to go anywhere else!! It is standard that once you are 8 weeks healthy gestation that they release you. I just can't imagine having to deal with another office. After the care that has been delivered at Houston IVF the new office has some very big shoes to fill! Once everything was good we brought all the moms in to hear the heartbeat and see their newest grandbaby. What an emotional rollercoaster all of this has been and to think we have finally made it here. We are only here because God has placed something so amazing in Lacy's heart to give her everything to us and carry our little pea. She is truly our angel on earth. Here are a few snapshots from the last couple of visits... Our next ultrasound is on September 10th- if all is good, off the the OB we go!!
No searching for those lines!!
Our Super Surro Pea Mama!
Our little fighter is in there!!
How amazing is she?
Uterus looking perfecto!
The little white spot is where they are placed!
We always had to search for a positive line and this time is was as bright as it could be!!! Love this gem!!
My baby daddy and I!!
Sibohan and Laretha- our lab ladies that are the best at drawing blood! They made sure to come out and hug us and cry with us!! They were so excited for us!!
Our little fighter!! The smaller black sac is #2 that they will keep an eye on.
This was before the ultrasound-- what are the odds?!
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