Tomorrow is suppression check!

Well the past two weeks have been extremely tough, not only on me but on my poor hubby.  He has put up with my extreme hot flashes, headaches and these lovely mood swings.  The first round I did not have to take these injections, I went straight into stimulations.  I will go in tomorrow morning for my first ultrasound and bloodwork.  They will take a look at everything and if all looks good I will start the stimualtion injections on Saturday.  I had in my head all along that this round would be easier because I knew what to expect but I feel that the harsh reality of it possibly not working again is just haunting me.  Everywhere I turn someone is pregnant... I mean everywhere.  I'm not the type to get down or sad but for some reason I have had a really hard time.  I will never forget the phone call the first time.  I feel like it was just yesterday, I can still hear the nurses voice and remember what we were doing the exact minute she called.  I feel much more confident in our new office and feel so blessed to have the opportunity to try again.  I've been asked what will we do if it doesn't work again, and unfortunately it is reality but I try not to think about it.  I know that God has a plan for us, I've said that from the start.. I'm just starting to realize that it might not be the exact plan I was looking for.  What doesn't kill us will only make us stronger I suppose.  Lacy will go in on Friday for her ultrasound and bloodwork to make sure she is ready for everything.  I am apart of quite a few facebook pages for women who are going through IVF, whether it be traditional or using a surrogate and they do a "sock buddy".  Where other women who are transferring and having their eggs retrieved around the same time as your send you special socks to wear during your procedures or any other little gifts to go along with it.  I'm looking forward to it!  I'm praying that tomorrow is a better day and that the Dr. McKenzie is pleased with everything tomorrow and we are a go for Saturday!