Getting started, let me catch everyone up...

So I'm new to this whole blogging thing but when this journey started I did start a journal so I added my enteries to here so I could be caught up.  I have read so many blogs about other couples journies through surrogacy and I know how much they have helped me, so maybe our story in return can help someone!  For those of you that don't know us here is a little background.  I am married to my absolute soulmate, Thomas.  We married on 5-5-12 and starting a family was always on our mind, well at least on mine.  I have been a type 1, insulin dependent diabetic since the age of 10.  We are both 28 years old and other than my diabetes, we are both healthy.  About 6 months ago we were devastated when my endocrinologist advised us it would not be in my best interest to carry a child.  In the back of our minds we knew that this was a possiblity but to actually have to come to terms with it was a whole nother ball game.  Thomas stayed strong through it all, mainly for me.  We prayed and prayed for God to show us an answer.  We began to come to terms with the fact that a child just might not be in the cards for us and though we felt we would be great parents, we also knew that we enjoyed each others company and loved being with just one another.  We didn't feel we were missing anything.  Just as we were getting back to normal, we got the news...

Sunday September 14, 2014
Today our world has changed. For weeks we have prayed for an answer regarding a child and today God has answered our prayers. The day started just as any other SUnday that we are in town. We went to church and cooked a nice dinner. Lynnann- Thomas’ mom came over for dinner along with our sister in law Ashley and niece Samantha. After dinner Lynnann asked us if we had thought anymore about the child situation, you see in July my endocrinologist gave us the dreaded news that he was totally against me trying to carry a child. Lynnann preceded to tell us that Thomas’ cousin Lacy was wanting to discuss being our gestational carrier. I was completely taken back and couldn’t believe that someone would be open to doing this for us. That night Thomas and I talked about what we should do, we had prayed and prayed for an open door and maybe this was it.

Monday September 15, 2014
After hardly sleeping all night, I spoke with Lacy on the phone. She was so excited and wanted to let us know that this is something she has wanted to do for a couple and would love to be able to do it for us. She said she feels this is a calling from God. Neither one of us even knew where to begin but I thought the first step was to make an appointment with my ob/gyn and get a checkup and find out where we go from here.

October 10, 2014
Appointment today with Dr. Sutaria, first time. Pap smear and blood work was done. I spoke with her regarding our decision for surrogacy and she gave me information for 3 different fertility offices. I decided to go with Dr. Allon, Nanny knew him from working at the hospital and said he seemed like a truly genuine doctor and thought we would really like him. The other two offices were very large with multiple doctors and I was concerned we wouldn’t get the time or attention we would need.

Friday October 31, 2014
First appointment with Dr. Allon- very soft-spoken and seemed to be kind hearted. He feels with Thomas and I both being young that we should not have any problems on our end. He went over the process with us and gave us some starting points. I had my blood work done today, we purchased expensive vitamins he wants us to take, and we will return Monday for an trans-vaginal ultrasound and Thomas’ sperm sample and blood work. He is extremely nervous about giving the sperm sample and couldn’t sleep last night! I haven’t been able to have a good nights sleep ever since this journey has begun.. almost too much to grasp!

Monday November 3, 2014
Today was our appointment for Thomas and I. He went in first for his blood work and of course had to give the tech a hard time. He then went in a small dark room to give his sample. There was a nice chair with tissue paper laid across the chair and a TV with numerous adult movies for him to watch. I opted to stay out of the room and let him attempt this on his own, poor thing! While he was doing his thing I had my ultrasound, the tech’s name was Amber and she was so sweet and upbeat. She showed me my ovaries and my uterus. She said both ovaries had 10-13 eggs in each and that was great considering I have not started any hormone therapy. We have our next appointment setup for November 21^st and at that appointment we will go over all test results and set a plan of action. We also setup dinner with Paul and Lacy this Saturday the 6^th to go over everything and make sure we have all questions answered up front. Still has not hit me that we could be having a baby this time next year! I have had a whirlwind of emotions and just can’t grasp that this is reality!

Saturday November 8, 2014
Today is the day we meet with Paul and Lacy! I am so nervous! Will I say the wrong things? Will I hurt someones feelings? Will they think I am being selfish? SO many emotions and uncertainty going into this. I have made a list of questions and also have printed some paperwork from the lawyer with questions they want answered for the contract. We had lunch with Brady. Robin and Brax before we headed out to San Antonio. At lunch they gave us a letter which contained an extremely generous gift. They have been with us the whole way and we are so excited that they are apart of this journey and are watching it unfold.
So we just got home from dinner! I could not have asked for a better outcome. Paul and Lacy are just beyond amazing! First thing they wanted us to be sure of was that they are 100% on board to do this and want nothing in return financially. They made the conversation so easy and made us feel so comfortable. We had to discuss some uncomfortable questions especially because some of them were regarding termination of pregnancy. We all agree that we will go forward with the pregnancy even if there are problems with the baby, but would have to look at things if anything was putting Lacy’s life in jeopardy. We talked about making our story public and putting it out there if people could relate. We all want people to know what a blessing this is and of course it is not the ideal situation. Idealy I would love to carry our baby myself but God has other plans. We have truly put our faith in him and know that he will guide us through this all.

Sunday November 9, 2014
Today we made it known to everyone what our plans are and we also setup “Go FUnd Me” site for any friends or family wanting to help. It is not easy coming to terms with the fact of expenses of the fertility treatment. We are so blessed to have such supportive friends and family. Thomas and I went back and forth regarding whether we should post the website or not. Would people think we are asking for handouts? Would people think we don’t work hard? What would people in general say? The fact is, no one knows what all we’ve been through and how hard we have worked just to get as far as we have. We have friends and family that want nothing more than to help us and we feel this gives them a way. We don’t expect anything from anyone, but anyone that would like to is able to help. Today has been such an emotional day. I have cried so many tears of joy. I find myself constantly questioning how did we get so blessed and how do we deserve all of this support?? I’m going to try to sleep tonight, however I’m pretty sure it won’t happen.

Monday November 10, 2014
Today again is filled with emotions!! I shared with my team at work where we are with the process and how everything has been going and they too are extremely excited for us and supportive. We are overwhelmed with the prayers and gifts that have been given. I have had numerous calls, texts and messages on facebook from people that are reaching out, and it makes me feel beyond blessed!!