Great News!!

Well this morning was my ultrasound/bloodwork appointment.  Thomas was able to go with me to this one since they were doing an ultrasound.  I told him I have good news and bad news.. bad news is we will not be seeing a baby on this ultrasound, good news is we will be seeing what makes one!! :)  I have to try to see the bright side of things or I would probably be an emotional wreck.  Lacy goes in this week for an ultrasound also just to check things out prior to transfer which is scheduled for the Thursday, the 15th.  This morning Aurora who is our IVF coordinator completed the ultrasound.  She was able to explain everything to us and show us what was what and how everything was looking.  The shots are doing exactly what they are supposed to be doing, which is great.  Although I feel like I look like I'm pregnant- I am not.. but those ovaries are swelling up!  My right ovary has about 10 follices of good size and a few that are smaller... The left has the same thing.  They will try for the good follicles and leave the smaller, weak ones.  At this stage and given the medicine I've been on they would like to see the follicles measuring 10-12 mm and mine were 13-15mm.. which is awesome!  I will start cetrotide tonight along with still taking the other two injections (menopur and gonal-f).  They will keep me on those 2 to keep the maturing processing going.. at retrieval date they would like the follicles to be measuring 20-22mm-- so I will really feel bloated then!!  The cetrotide that I will start tonight will keep me from ovulating.  They want to keep all the follicles possible so this new injection will prevent ovualtion- or loosing any.  Thomas said I don't look that big(key word THAT).. haha He said it looks like I really have to go pee.. which oddly I have to constantly... I'm guessing because my ovaries are pushing on my bladder?  It is definitely starting to feel real now.  My mom is going to come into town next weekend and go with us to the retrieval appointment.  I have to admit I am starting to get a little nervous.  I dread being put under because of all the complications I have had with anesthesia in the past, but I have to keep my eye on the prize and every bit of this is worth it!  I have a feeling this week is going to fly by and before you know it they're going to be sucking these follicles(that hopefully all have healthy eggs in them) out and inejcting them with Thomas' sperm and bam- it's baby time!  Thomas had a great time at the appointment today!  Of course he has to look at everything and investigate what goes where and how they do everything... I love how inquisitive he is about everything, most of the time he makes me laugh!  We were at a cutting this weekend so today I tried to catch up on duties around the house.  They told me as the week goes on the less I am going to want to do because of the swelling of the ovaries.  We were at church this morning and our worship leader- who doesn't know our story, said a few things that just really hit home and it felt like he was speaking directly to us.  It is so amazing how God works through people... like he is working through Thomas and I through this whole process.  I can't tell you the number of people who have messaged us, who are not necessarily going through fertility issues but just life in general and following our story has given them a ray of light.  I hope that throughout this process, no matter what the end result is that people learn to lean on their faith... without it we wouldn't be where we are.  It's very much easier said than done but when you feel you have nothing left there is one person who's love is never failing, never ending and will never run out on you.. and that's God.  Okay, enough with the preaching!  I've got to get back to cooking dinner.. tonights schmor-gis-board, cabbage, black eyed peas (new year food) and homeade broccoli cheese soup!!  #babybray

The black blobs are some of the follicles!