My buckles tilting! 😉

Well today will be day 4 of injections out of 10!  I went in this morning to have  my hormones checked to see if we need to adjust the amount of hormones I am taking.  They decreased my Gonal-f to 75mg from 150 and will keep the menopur at 75mg.  My next appointment is Sunday morning, Thomas is going to go with me so he can see the ultrasound.  Unfortunately the ultrasound won't be of an embryo in my belly but it is the start of one, so we'll take it!  We are in Gonzales this weekend for a cutting and yesterday was my first day back in the show pen!  Felt great to get back at it but I sure am paying for it today!  I feel like a pumpkin about to explode!  Thank goodness it's cold and I'm bundled up so you can't really tell!  I am extremely thankful that the injections don't seem to be effecting my blood sugars, the steroids have done that enough!  Thomas started his antibiotics this morning. They do that to clear his body of any possible infections so Saturday when he gives his sample everything will be perfect!  I can't believe we're only a week out for the egg retrieval/semen sample!! This process is absolutely mind boggling!  I mean our eggs and sperm will be in a Petri dish for 3-5 days and then they will be in Lacy to grow!!  So crazy! I have to be honest if this is what I would feel like pregnant, God knew I wouldn't make it so maybe that's the reason for this path!  It kind of feels like I have two oranges in my belly just floating around!  I haven't been mean because some people have asked but I have been a little extra sensitive.. I've already cried twice today! 😭😭    I keep telling myself not to be so positive about all of this, to see the awful reality that it might not work... But I think that's the devil trying to work on me.  Our faith is what has brought us this far and I know he will bring us through this!  I started a challenge a few weeks ago to listen to either KSBJ or the message on xm while in the car.. If I can't get either station I don't listen to anything.  Everyone should try this, give it a month if it doesn't change your life or your outlook I will pay you-- I mean not a lot but something because I know it will!! Sometimes they give a verse or a quote and I know they are talking to me, specifically!   Well I've got to go get a horse ready.. Hopefully these oranges in my belly behave!  🍊🍊  When I say my buckles tilting.. For those who don't know, when you're belly starts to get bigger and it pushes on your belt buckle causing it to tilt--- I might have this going on hahaha!!