Wow, so much has happened the past few days! The day after egg retrieval I ended up in the ER because I couldn't keep anything down. My ovaries were showing signs of being hyper stimulated so they started me on another pill to help with fluid build up. Funny of the night in the ER. The ER doctor comes in to tell us that my pregnancy test is coming back positive, I said that is completely impossible.. it has to be because of all of the hormones I'm on. He said let me run it again, and of course comes back saying it is still positive. HAHA- only time that will ever happen! He called Dr. Allon and they ran a count and the count was in normal range with the hormones I was on, so bam- I'm not pregnant. I was able to go home that night and thankfully rested Monday and was able to keep everything down. They called me yesterday at work and about gave me a heart attack. They stated that the embryos were not progressing as Dr. Allon and the embryologist would like and in order to give them the best chance they would like to transfer on Wednesday. Talk about a compelete shock! On Saturday, they were so positive and excited that they were able to retrieve 22 eggs! Even on Sunday.. they had fertilized 17 and 12 had survived. Well Monday that all changed and they waited until Tuesday to see what the remainder looked like. They didn't tell me on the phone how many were remaining or really much of anything. I'm guessing the coordinator didn't want to say too much and be bound to her words. After that phone call I lost it.. I didn't understand what all of this meant. She told me not to worry, but of course I'm going to worry. You've told me they look "okay" and "good" but not "great".. I couldn't grasp that two days before everything was looking so good and now this?? Lacy and Paul have been so great, and from day one whatever they needed to do, or whenever they needed to come down they're here. This morning they drove in and we met them so we could all ride together. Up until today we have not had to wait at Dr. Allon's but maybe 10 minutes. Well today we waited two hours before being brought back.. talk about anxiety growing during that time! We opted to do acupucture for Lacy to help with blood flow to her uterus. When they brought us back that was first the doctor came in to start her acupucture which takes about 45 minutes. They place the small needles in a few places- her feet, wrists, stomach and one in her head. After they had all them placed they placed a heat lamp on her abdomen to help with the flow also. She took her valium and we waited. AFter acupucture was done Dr. Allon came in to give us the news on our embryos.. Talk about SHOCK!! We started with 22 eggs, 17 were of size and maturity to fertilize. After fertilization 12 survived. We were so excited at that point, well in shock himself Dr. Allon told us that for some reason most of the embryos did not progress any further. Only 3 had, one looked on schedule, one was a little behind and the third was about a day behind. Of course Lacy said lets put all 3 in and see what happens. We opted just to do the two stronger ones which in a normal case is what Dr. Allon would do. I was in such shock I couldn't speak. THis meant we have this one chance to get it right, but as I sit here and want to feel sorry for myself I think about that ladies who have no eggs, or the couples who have 0 embryos that make it to transfer date. We now need prayers for strength for our embryos and now that they are in their home that they are able to thrive and grow! I was able to go in with Lacy for the transfer and what an amazing experience! They used an abdominal ultrasound to locate Lacy's uterus and they also had a camera in the lab with the embryos so I was able to see our babies on a screen and watch them be transfered to Lacy. It was absolutely life changing watching that. My sister told me- sissy those babies want some where warm so they can get comfortable and grow, they're tired of being in a dish! I have to remind myself that! We will know on January 28th where we are. Lacy will take a blood pregnancy test and then two weeks after we will do an ultrasound.. No matter what we have to keep our faith and the past two days have been very trying. I laid in bed last nigth reading scriptures just to try to keep my head up and it helped so much. I felt great and confident this morning, and now just feel a little defeated after Dr. Allon's report. I hurt so much for Thomas and I have from the beginning.. He tells me daily that he married me for me and he did not marry me to have a child, that him and I are family and that's enough for him. Saturday he really showed emotion and was so excited, he even text Lacy, "I'm going to be a daddy". I hurt so bad for him that he might be missing out on something because of me. He has been so strong and continues to be strong. Thank you to all of our prayer warriors, I know without each of you and God that we wouldn't be where we are. Please pray for Lacy and Paul in the weeks to come, for our two little peanuts in Lacy and for Thomas, even though he says he doesn't need it. Let the countdown begin!! Here are a few photos from today..
Day of transfer goodies for my oven! :)
She's got a heart as big as Texas
Never looses that beautiful smile!
Start of acupucture, I told her see your oven is hot!!
Life changing!
People say the biggest blessing is a child, I think the biggest blessing in life is to do something for someone when there is no possible way they would ever be able to repay you. No matter what the outcome is our hearts will forever be joined, afterall you have part of us in you.. :)
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